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I don't know, maybe it's a topic which doesn't belong in here for 100%, but i just want to know your opinions on that, because you all in here are the nicest people I've ever met online and sometimes this forum feels like second home for me:) .
It's a very personal topic (not as personal as the "sleeping with my friend" thread, but nearby8-)) and it's linked to the Pumpkins somehow, so here it is:
In the last days, i feel more and more changes coming into my life.
It starts with finishing school those weeks; I got the german "Abitur", something like A-Levels after 13 years of education now.
It's a strange feeling...
But that's just the beginning, in the last weeks, I started thinking about my youth and I discovered one thing, that led me through these years: The music of Smashing Pumpkins!
It started with 13 years, as i first heard Zero on TV and borrowed Mellon Collie from our towns library.
While discovering other Pumpkins-albums, there was my first teenage-love which was defintly supported by the music.
From that time on, I had an emotional connection to the Pumpkins and they became my definite favorite-band.
I listend to them all the time, many years long and they didn't become boring, but even more and more amazing.
Pumpkins WERE god and nothing (or noone else).
The first time, I got doubts about that was last year's july, when i started listening to Zeitgeist and really felt let down and betrayed by Corgan for the very first time.
But I thought, it was an unique mistake.
Other bands never played any role in m life, but in November I suprisingly started listening to other music, aswell after I saw a brilliant prog-rock gig.
Then American Gothic followed and it didn't feel right, aswell. The Pumpkins gig on February 22th in Munich also wasn't what i expected from Pumpkins, i liked it, but the choice of songs and Corgan's presence, both were not very good. I got more and more in the bands Porcupine Tree and Sonic Youth (as you might know) and discovered that they also were able to create emotional and well written music. Now today, I feel like the "magic" of the Pumpkins is gone somehow. I still like them a lot, but I do not listen to them as much as in my past. I also changed the way I looked radicaly and started things, I planned to do before years. Maybe youth is over now, and became more adult, i don't know, but the thing I fear is, that i sooner or later (maybe after i would dislike the coming relase) could lose touch with the Pumpkins, who always have been an important part of my life, but I don't want to. Sounds weird, I know, but thanks for reading!!!
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If it helps, for me it was a similar thing as I got into the band after they had broken up and listening to them constantly helped me through my college years and make me the sort of person I am. When they finally reunited and I got to finally see them it was like closure, as if I could finally move on and try other things. And I did, but I found myself eventually coming back to the band and appreciating them in other ways. I dont particularly care for much of the new stuff but I still find the older music helping me in certain situations.
So my advice would be to go ahead and experience other music or whatever, and see if you come back to the pumpkins music. It may remain like a nostalgia trip because they surrounded a lot of your youthful life moments but it may also inspire you for newer things. .... So basically my idea was to carry on where yor going and just see what happens, if thats worthwhile advice or not?? hahaha